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Child of God  ~[Lily Soon] ~Belongs to God. ~I don't bite. ~Music is beautiful. Here & There Talk To Me Definition of Love Love is kind It does not envy It does not boast It is not proud It is not rude It is not self-seeking It is not easily angered It keeps no record of wrongs Love does not delight in evil But rejoices with truth It always protects Always trusts Always hope Always perserveres Love never fails) 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 God's Words Pray with Me -Sister's spiritual growth -Auntie Christina Sim's health & healing -Developing countries -Spiritual growth -Knowing what God has in plan for me -Relatives to know about Christ -Gift of Giving -Studies -Health and well-being of family -Discipline and focus in goals -Perserverence in reading the bible daily Bros & Sis<3 Aimst Fellowship Crystal Bian Bian Lily姐 小云姐 Teddy哥哥 Alex^^ Jasper Max Mic Mic Shi Yi Edith Val Yee Loi Larry Joy Kelvin C Kawaii Kevin Evelyn Felicia Jacinta Rome Serenne Lawson Blogs I Read Yuu~Chan Vain Kenny Xiu Wen Fai Fai Stephy Vincent Joey Shaunnie Christine Baby Bear(Li Ann) Papa Bear(Zhang Huai) Amelia^^ Angeline(Dolphin) Clement Yi Cheng Zhi Hui Rachael Kuan Wen Wei Lian Have a Look Cheesie Xia Xue Vivian Su Ann May Zhee Jessica Peggy Yan Wen Dawn Nira Gwendolyn Cai Weii Esther Pei Yeeng Feisty Charmaine Michelle Justice4BengHock YMI Isabella Chukei-Baby Let bygone be bygone. July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 June 2010 July 2010 October 2010 March 2011 |
Thursday, July 23 ( The Irony @ 12:51:00 ) There are so much in my mind now that I want to speak of but I can't, that I would love to type here but I can't, that I want to scream out to the hill just opposite but I CAN'T... Ever wonder how ironic it is to have the freedom of speech when you are being trapped inside a prison of speech, where you can't say anything that refuse to leave your saturated mind... I am no angel, the blog address is just me trying to be nice and sweet. I should have put devil instead. You know the black creature with a tail and 2 horns. I looked like that now if you could see me. Probably with a big fire raging over my head. I am trying to change, no saying bad things or thinking bad of others but honestly that proves difficult especially if the person keep stabbing you in the back, in my cases, in my face.. I wonder which is worse? I am amazed and thankful for answered prayers. So far, my studies had been better, starting off better than last year, where I was floating aimlessly. Now, I see my goals more clearly and I am finding my disciplines to sit down at my table after class and dinner to take out my book ad actually read something or do something. To top that off, it ain't that bad after all. It is actually fun when you really get to understands concept and there is that "ah-ha" moments where the tiny tiny light bulbs light on top of my head.... well, ya, it happens a lot and it is only the first week. Wonder what I had been stuffing in my mind last year.. Hmmm.. Well, that is the lighter note of things. As of now, my brain is so messed up I can't really think straight and I just got to remove all these distractions in my mind. Drey was right. There are tonnes of KS people around and in my case plenty of very rude and judgemental people around. Yes, I do regret having to repeat but I am just too cowardly to choose another path. Who have I become? Someone whom I am not, that's for sure. Hidden behind layers of masks. Trying to be nice when I don't want to, trying to forgive when I can't, trying to remain invisible but .... It's always the buts.. I really wonder... I got a lot of culture shocks as of now... People are ruder than before, braver than before and a lot less mature than before. It's something that needs time for me to adjust myself to, to feel comfortable as in immune to the negative surroundings.. I am hoping that it will be soon... How is it that you can easily forget someone who is stepping on your toes, always around you that it is impossible to ignore and always doing things that disgust and annoy you? Most importantly, how to stay away and just forget when they are snatching everything from you. History in that department is recurring. Not academic wise*fingers crossed*.. But you know, same old person, doing same old thing. Just that this time, this famous oxidation-reduction chemical reaction is coming back stronger than ever and only Day 1, it's already strike one... The score is still 1-0 and I am on the zero side. I am not planning to counter-attack but it is getting on my nerves. I thought I had found the heart to forgive and forget but clearly I do not know myself well. It's a brand new chapter with the same old main character. It is going to get interesting. But this year, unlike the last, I will just sit back and enjoy the show, well, after I finish all my works and revision.. Tata *I am not emotional or messed up just that I need to get all these junks out of my head to clear and air it for the next session of Maths time..=D I am really happy here. I miss my family and I have got great roomies and housies..=) So, yeah, life's good.. Need to hit the gym more often though.. Ughhh.. Though ya, chem reaction totally make me lose my appetite-literally... Maybe that's one good thing I wil get out of all these situations.. Sorry if my post looks all jumble up, well it is, it's a lot of skip and edit here and there.. But I'm glad it is off my chest and I did it without hurting anyone or anything..* 0 comments |
