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Child of God  ~[Lily Soon] ~Belongs to God. ~I don't bite. ~Music is beautiful. Here & There Talk To Me Definition of Love Love is kind It does not envy It does not boast It is not proud It is not rude It is not self-seeking It is not easily angered It keeps no record of wrongs Love does not delight in evil But rejoices with truth It always protects Always trusts Always hope Always perserveres Love never fails) 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 God's Words Pray with Me -Sister's spiritual growth -Auntie Christina Sim's health & healing -Developing countries -Spiritual growth -Knowing what God has in plan for me -Relatives to know about Christ -Gift of Giving -Studies -Health and well-being of family -Discipline and focus in goals -Perserverence in reading the bible daily Bros & Sis<3 Aimst Fellowship Crystal Bian Bian Lily姐 小云姐 Teddy哥哥 Alex^^ Jasper Max Mic Mic Shi Yi Edith Val Yee Loi Larry Joy Kelvin C Kawaii Kevin Evelyn Felicia Jacinta Rome Serenne Lawson Blogs I Read Yuu~Chan Vain Kenny Xiu Wen Fai Fai Stephy Vincent Joey Shaunnie Christine Baby Bear(Li Ann) Papa Bear(Zhang Huai) Amelia^^ Angeline(Dolphin) Clement Yi Cheng Zhi Hui Rachael Kuan Wen Wei Lian Have a Look Cheesie Xia Xue Vivian Su Ann May Zhee Jessica Peggy Yan Wen Dawn Nira Gwendolyn Cai Weii Esther Pei Yeeng Feisty Charmaine Michelle Justice4BengHock YMI Isabella Chukei-Baby Let bygone be bygone. July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 June 2010 July 2010 October 2010 March 2011 |
Tuesday, June 23 ( 21 days and counting... @ 11:13:00 ) 0 comments Friday, June 19 ( A Girl Like Me @ 00:22:00 ) Life full of complexity and mysteries... There's a lot going on in my mind, I felt the bulks getting bigger each day... Now, Hanging there in the clouds, I can feel myself losing contact with reality, Slowly sinking back into a world of my own... Maybe it's meant to be, For me to be ME... Now that I have learnt so much, Over the months away from home, Thrown into a world, Where everything were to be norm... I grew up, not a year, but ten... I learnt lessons that are not taught in classes, Theories of life that are not stated in books... I learnt life is a journey, With its constant ups and downs, bearable and unbearable.. I learnt what I need was God, and a lot of supportive, loving and the right people around me... Sometimes, we need people who are different, To rub off our edges, to shape us into a better us, But I truly believe, Behind every incident is a miracle to be unveil... Time will tell... But now, I am taking a brave step out of this socially isolating world of mine, Threathening to destroy my life forever, Trying to leave the past behind, And let nature takes it course, Letting memories stay what they are, memories... So, please do not make things any tougher, By reminiscing things that I rahter not remember... For I'm a girl, Who knows well what shame means, Who have low self-esteem... This is a difficult walk down the right path, So, please take my hand, walk with me... Don't be a fair weather friend, Being there only when the sun is shining, When the rain clouds roll in, Please don't run... Stay with me, Keep me warm and dry in your embrace, Because that is when I need you most... Don't judge me, don't criticise me... I know my mistakes and my apologies seems to be in vain, But i'm trying my best, So do try to understand... I'm trying to build my self-esteem, Trying to trust that I am worthy... Behind these curtains, You can't see the pretence, the hurts, the miseries, The regrets and the agony... So, lend your shoulder not your bashing, Your love not your anxiety... Your advice, not your smirking... For I do wish for a day, Where I would lift up my head again, And look the world in the eyes and said, "World, I'm ready for you.." I'm a worthy person... I want to be able to walk confidently, To talk and look into people's eyes, Not their feet and shoes, To feel less self-conscious, To let myself relax around people... Instead of a couch potato, I would finally dare to accept that offer for a get together, In that quaint little parlour, On a Sunday afternoon... And movie with my peeps on Saturday night, Not just sitting at home doing nothing.. I do feel trap and alone, Like a little bird who couldn't find its way home... I want to be free, Binded by no other but the will of God... I want to submit fully to Him, And truly Trust in Him... I believe I can, I really do... Crush my dreams not, Break my heart not, Taunt my wounds no more, For I am a new person, Truly a better person, For I had been born again, In the name of Christ... I believe I would someday read this again, And I hope to laugh at this funny thoughts of mine, And reminisce how my life had changed... I do believe, I do hope... For no human know better, A girl like me... 2 comments Sunday, June 14 ( A grateful heart, a beautiful blessing… @ 21:07:00 ) Who would guess two people so different can develop such a close relationship. It was not easy, full of challenge, required patience and there were a lot of bickerings and disagreements along the way. It is a wonder how years ago, the saying “I’m sorry, we are so different it seems we are from two different words” was the last say in a long and difficult relationship. But, last year, these two words brought such different emotion when said. Rather than sadness as felt when heard for the first time, the second time someone spoke these words to me, I was touched and awed by the truth in them. I remembered that night vividly, the both of us, sitting in the living room, having a heart to heart talk, after you came back from a trip to Penang you said, “I am amazed by how different we are, yet we are still able to be so close.” I had never met a friend that cared so much for me in the past and I guess I was tired of always giving and giving until I was exhausted and never got anything in return where all I want is the assurance of a friendship and a gesture of appreciation, a simple thank you and when I say you’re my best friend, you’ll say you are mine too. But years after years, I was dissapointed because none of them ever said that to me, they would just say, I have no best friend, which broke my heart. But then I met you, you are different.. You were there, ready to hear me pour out my heart, offer a crying shoulder and generous with your hugs and kisses. When I was sick, you came and visit me, which will always be remembered. We have our share of fights and quarrels just as real friends are bound to face, because that is what true friends are like, knocking each others’ corners off, to help shape us into a better person. When a friend is honest with you, that is a true friend. Even though the truth may hurt in the beginning, a true friend will walk with you on the journey of healing and in the end you found out that something good had come out of the initial hurt you feel. I had a very complex and complicated thinking and presumption of how a friendship should be like-how every friendship should be like.Being so inexperience, all the presumption and smooth flowing were just mere imagination. But you teach me the right from the wrong, you taught me about patience, about how friends do not need to cling to each other 24/7, that friends still need boundaries, that friends do care even though they do not show it, that friends are always there for you. Now I know that friendship is a simple thing, a beautiful, simple matter that brought joys beyond measure and make you feel all safe and fuzzy inside. I just felt like an idiot for it had taken me so long, a year to realise that, and in the process brought grief to both of us. Then there are the typical girly girl things we would do together, went out shopping, cook, talk about clothes and movies and laugh around at silly things which does not even make sense to me now. I really felt love and I felt the urge to protect you always, so no harm shall come to you in anyway. I learn to care about others, how not to be selfish but give unconditionally because I love you. I learn to love as the bible says. I learn to be patient, I learn to be kind, I learn to not be jealous, I learn not to boast, I learn to be humble, I learn about self-esteem, I learn not to be self-centred, I learn to be a better person and I learn to learn the truth. All these just from learning to love you and others. There is still a litany of things that had yet to be said, I am endlessly reminiscing the sweet memories that we had created in the time we spent together. And It is difficult to pen these feelings and emotions into words, but I just want to say that I am grateful for you dear and for all my friends that I had come to know, for making me realise I can start anew and everyone deserve a second chance. Thank you for your love, your care and your friendship. It meant the world to me just as you meant to me… I thank God for this dear friend that He had given to me. Thank you for bringing Sha into the world today exactly 19 years ago. Thanks you for letting us cross each other’s path that we had come to know each other and to love each other.May God cast His abundant blessing and care upon her and her family. A small tribute to a very special girl in my life,  The lady looking gorgeous in purple..=D  A full length photo to show how lanky she is..=)  Among our earliest photo took together..=) There is Lemon at the top, second row from left to right is me, Ruqi and SHA! At the front row is Drey!!! We miss you!  Our first time out together where Drey make a crazy decision and follow our heed to cut her hair and dyed it purple! Superb result..Awww, I miss the days we went out together..=D  My first alone pic with Sha on our first outing together..=D in CS outside that barder shop..remember dear?  An old piccy I found from my folder of older photos...Awwww..Loves..<3>  Baby girl enjoying her McD dessert...She got me addicted to Mc Flurry after that!  A special girl who 'pei' me do silly things even thought I'm so childish, she put up with me...  Sha dear looking fab as usual..=D Dear I'm still in love with this pic of yours! .jpg) Another fav photo of her!^^ My mama says you look pretty darling..=D This is among the first picture I show to her...=D To Sha dear, I want to wish you a Happy 19th Birthday and I miss celebrating our birthday together. Thank you for everything and dear, I appreciate everything that you have done for me. I am sorry for all the wrongs that I may have done and making you unhappy along the way. I am just starting to learn more about life and explore the meaning of friendship. Thanks for accepting me as I am and thank you for being so patient with me. You know how much I love and care for you. I will see you soon and wish you have an awesome day darling! I miss you lots… Mwah~ -Love- from Lily~ *sorry for late post dear..I typed this out the night before your birthday and went off to Sibu early in the morning… Just came back..=D Hope you had a great day today!! 0 comments Saturday, June 6 ( What I did on the 1st of June... @ 15:45:00 )  Me and my babe in the car!^^  Double camwhores!  We reached our destinations..So, Crys was somewhat fascinated by this big oddly shaped can of beer branded trieneikens...Must be the far far cousin of Heneiken.. Hmmm.. It's the same colour!=D Anyways.... we went to the BEACH!!!!!!!!!  Crys dear was trying to take some artistic shot like those you can find in photobucket I think..=D With her new baby! LG phone..Its red, its hot and come with full slide qwerty keys and touch screen! I'm so jealousss.... Ahaz!  Anyways, my my sis, me and Crys wasted no time to take off our slippers and get wild I mean have fun on the sandy shore! Guess which one is my feet? I'll give you a hint.. Mine is the biggest, fattest and dirtiest!Hehehehehe!
 And so, we started camwhoring again cos the sun and lighting was awesome! But it was hot!If only the sun can be that bright and lovely but not hot! You know what I mean! I always imagine myself lying on the beach in a nice sundress under a tree with my favourite novel prop on my belly and in my imagination, the sun is always lovely, the sky blue and the sunshine bright but never hot! And at the end of the day I am still fair, not tanned! Hahahaha  Anyways, a stingray tried to attacked my sister's brain..Can you see the long tail there? *control laughter*  And this is my half-headed slim cousin....Awwwww  We also find eight-legged spider star at the beach!^^ They're humoungous!  The lovesssssssss...I misss you Crys!!  This is my first "jump-in-the-air" photo! Captured by Crys!^^ Me like....  Another hot shot of my dearie!^^ And no, she did not dyed her hair!=D Nice colour ey? And at the back will be my stingray headed sister..=D  Then we wanted to take some sort of shot. Ya know, with our legs and arms suspended in the mid-air. I did not realised we had to suspend the leg so shot 1, failed...Aiks! It was difficult to put our arm on each other shoulders and put up the other arm in mid air while balancing on one leg on an uneven and narrow piece of tree branch. Hehe..sound more complicated when i write it out in words...=D  Shot 2, total failure...no legs, no arms...Not ready!  Success!! Darn, I envied her slim legs!  \ I found a weird unknown-coconut-lookalike thingy by the shore and decided to make it into a camwhore accessory..=) Anyone know what is that?  No wonder people say I don't look chinese..I really don't..Hmm..Its time to accept the fact..Haiz.. I look like cryssy's Indonesian maid in the picture...But namind.. I can imitate one perfectly, talking wise..=) I think I am getting attached to this identity..=)  Me and my sis redoing our dance move..Lol...I can go lower..Blearkkk..But she claimed that she looked better.Yaya...always had been, Viv...  Anyways, that's all folks!^^ Hee~ Time to go. Our feet can wave yo, darn..my toes looks as if they are cramped! So unglam... *pukes* Anyways, really happy bout the holiday!^^ I submitted my uni application and booking the air tickets soon! Gonna visit Crys dear in Miri for 2-3 days in July..=D I had given in my notice that I will be working until the end of this month! Gonna take proper pictured with my cutsie students and post them up I reckon..=D I'm gonna miss them cos they're owh-so-cute! Darlings, I'm gonna miss you all! Study hard k!^^ Loves, -Just myself-^^ PS : Apart from being mistaken as a Malay, Indonesian, Indian, Iban, Melanau, Filipino, and a lot of other races, the latest amusement come from my 17-year-old male student who is really a very good student and very attentive in class. We were talking about something in class yesterday afternoon when we came ocross my age. He was shocked that I am only 19 years old. He thought I am a married woman with kids. He said cos I looked mature and spoke good English and I guess he had the mindset that teachers have to be older? Anyways, I have no idea to be flattered or depressed... Darn... Apparently I have got the face, skin and body of a married-with-kidS-woman.... This time die lorrrrrrrrr..... 0 comments |
