Love is patient
Love is kind
It does not envy
It does not boast
It is not proud
It is not rude
It is not self-seeking
It is not easily angered
It keeps no record of wrongs
Love does not delight in evil
But rejoices with truth
It always protects
Always trusts
Always hope
Always perserveres
Love never fails)
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
God's Words
“For Christ’s love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died. And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died for them and was raised again.” -2 Corinthians 5:14-15
-Both parents salvation
-Sister's spiritual growth
-Auntie Christina Sim's health & healing
-Developing countries
-Spiritual growth
-Knowing what God has in plan for me
-Relatives to know about Christ
-Gift of Giving
-Studies
-Health and well-being of family
-Discipline and focus in goals
-Perserverence in reading the bible daily
Been back for 2 months. Rotting at home albeit teaching part time tuition classes and catching up with foundation studies and disciple studies. I don't know where had the time went most of the time. And I barely had anything done. Bah... Discipline, something I can never learn up till now. Have tonnes of photos but lazy to update anything, anywhere. Well, here's one, to prove I am still alive and kicking. Product of a lazy afternoon at home, doing nothing and in a horrible mood.
had passed. Obviously. It's 11 minutes passes midnight when I am writing this. I received my Valentine gift on my doorstep-literally when I opened my eyes yesterday morning. Awwwww.Gift of love from AIMST. How sweet. Well, like what Fai Fai said, I just ripped open the envelope, fully prepared for the lousy piece of paper inside. I actually took a few seconds to figure how to ripped open the thing because I was to lazy to get the assistance of something sharp to pry it open. After a few struggles(note to self, do not cut fingernails until they are too short for anything) I managed to get the papers and stare at the content while stupidly looking for another piece of paper teaching me how to calculate the marks. Then, I called up fai fai then eric cos fai did not pick up my call the first time round. After that took out my phone and calculate. Crap, marks was not enough(of course it's not enough) and the grades are miserable. So I just went to the kitchen to washed the egg plate and call my mom who took it pretty well. Then I dwaddle around doing nothing and took a bath and went to church for class and training up to now. What a great Valentine. Mom was luckier though. She got cake from daddy with 9 roses. Lol. She is so happy. Then I ate some of the cheesecake and drank some champagne and my parents actually took the result pretty well. Thank God for supportive parents. Owh well, it will be another year of torment in foundation but I will survive. =) Overall, today was a good day and I am off to continue reading the novel that I left off last night. And no, I am not ashame to tell you all I got lousy results and I am off to repeat my foundation. I actually forget for a while I wanted to write here and was zonked out for a few minutes and thus beating around the bush. Uh, yes. I am in the process of downsizing myself. Second week now and things are going great I should say. Exercising daily and the corset and the thermoactive cream works very well. I can see and feel the flabs falling off and I feel trimmer. Now, i should just continue and downsize myself further. Ahhh, life is good and no I am not bitter about my result. it was better than expected but just not good enough. Owh well, tataz. Need to go to bed and rest up for church tommorow morning, afternoon and night. Yup, training in afternoon and at night. Have a blessed Sabbath Day folks! God bless...
I have not receive my freaking result. No point though. I am feeling so sick thinking of it. I am currently a tuition teacher to a bunch of primary school kids. I am taking up disciple classes. I have a date tomorrow, disciple class in the afternoon and then Sunday School training at night. I am alright now probably because I try to make myself busy. I cook a lot of nonsense food. The diet seems to be working. I am unmotivated to do Maths 1 especially calculus. I haven't teach my sister anything. My sister got 2 tortoises for her pet and expect me to feed and change their water. How nice of her. Life is same old same old. When the results finally do come in, it's not gonna be a pretty sight I tell ya.
Had been wanting to post this post for a long time now, since I was back from the New Year retreat. Just realised, this would be my 200th post and the last for a period of time. How long? I don't know. These days I am easily overwhelmed by a strong feeling of I-don't-know-what. I looked back too much and thought of how I blew every things and chances that I had once came across in my life. How I had spoil everything one day of another. How easily I lose my head when I am in the middle of things and situations. I looked back and see how much and how less I had grown over the period of one year. One year, not a short nor a long time. But during those period of time I felt I have grown and mature but I was wrong, very wrong. I worried unnecessarily about unimportant things and when I am back, I was slammed back into reality, cold hard and harsh reality call life. Where everything appears less than perfect than the last I saw them-in my imagination, my wild imagination is to be blamed. Writing here had been my source of pouring my hearts but now I read back, they all sounded stupid and I just felt ashamed of them. I want to learn to grow up, to accept the world with its imperfection, and try to stop imagining the world as it would never be. What with family crisis and my education, with my weight and finding a job, with the fear of losing people I love more and hangind on desperately trying to keep in contact with people that I care for , people that I love, afraid that they do not know that I still remember them dearly. I am tired, very tired. If one of these days I have a special someone, a soul mate, well, let's see if he can put up with my non-sensical thoughts and my depressed feelings and how I constantly worries about everything and anything from serious to ridiculous. Passionate? Not if you are smacked in the middle of the problem, how can you not think about it. Now, sitting here, binding myself with suffocating corset and skin still burning from thermo-active slimming cream, I wonder why am I breathing at this monent. Life as it is for me, pathetic is the only word to describe this. I need to get back in control of my life or more accurately, let God take control of my life. I need a break. I had been absent from the cyber world for a period of time and it felt good to be cut off from the world for a bit. I really need to talk to someone, but I don't know who. I mean physically. I felt suffocated by the hypocritical people around me. My only place of hope is now my worst nightmare. I tend to really see the true colours of people around me. Good or Bad? I don't know. They just show that they care on the surface, deep inside, they care twopence about your existence. There is no love, just realistic human nature. There is no one to be blame, only me. I am the source of all problem. I know it... and I want to fix it... Fingers cross... Well, I still remember all of you dear friends out there though it is quite impossible to be in contact so often. I do still care.. Take care and have a great holiday. As for the result coming out next week, I don't know how true is that piece of information. I am not nervous because I already know my result but still I hate to see the dissapointment of my parents and I hate myself for it.
