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Child of God  ~[Lily Soon] ~Belongs to God. ~I don't bite. ~Music is beautiful. Here & There Talk To Me Definition of Love Love is kind It does not envy It does not boast It is not proud It is not rude It is not self-seeking It is not easily angered It keeps no record of wrongs Love does not delight in evil But rejoices with truth It always protects Always trusts Always hope Always perserveres Love never fails) 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 God's Words Pray with Me -Sister's spiritual growth -Auntie Christina Sim's health & healing -Developing countries -Spiritual growth -Knowing what God has in plan for me -Relatives to know about Christ -Gift of Giving -Studies -Health and well-being of family -Discipline and focus in goals -Perserverence in reading the bible daily Bros & Sis<3 Aimst Fellowship Crystal Bian Bian Lily姐 小云姐 Teddy哥哥 Alex^^ Jasper Max Mic Mic Shi Yi Edith Val Yee Loi Larry Joy Kelvin C Kawaii Kevin Evelyn Felicia Jacinta Rome Serenne Lawson Blogs I Read Yuu~Chan Vain Kenny Xiu Wen Fai Fai Stephy Vincent Joey Shaunnie Christine Baby Bear(Li Ann) Papa Bear(Zhang Huai) Amelia^^ Angeline(Dolphin) Clement Yi Cheng Zhi Hui Rachael Kuan Wen Wei Lian Have a Look Cheesie Xia Xue Vivian Su Ann May Zhee Jessica Peggy Yan Wen Dawn Nira Gwendolyn Cai Weii Esther Pei Yeeng Feisty Charmaine Michelle Justice4BengHock YMI Isabella Chukei-Baby Let bygone be bygone. July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 June 2010 July 2010 October 2010 March 2011 |
Friday, November 14 ( Being 18... @ 23:30:00 ) So far, I had not been clubbing once, though tempted to several times, no parties whatsoever that are wild and I think the only birthday party I attend was Sha's, that was a nice, quiet supper at Lio'z. I stayed up till the wee hours in the morning, that is due to the dreaded imsomnia and at times trying to finish up assignments, projects or even trying to do last minute cramming during exam period. About driving, I had yet sit for my law test. Dates? Let's just say there are no romance sparking on my 18th birthday and no sign that there would be in the near future and all I had was the change of perspective on how I look at relationships. Thin and fabulous? That's a mere dream. Albeit shedding off a few kgs and gaining back a little, I am still plump and not stick thin. However, being 18, I had went through a lot of major things in my life, seeing my life transform in this new chapter. The first being accepted into university, where I spread my wings and leave home for the first time to further my study. For the first time in my life, I experienced what people said were back-sliding, feeling God is so far away. Also, for the first time in my life, I really realise how much my parents love me and how much they meant to me. Also for the first time, I know that there are people that do not hate me, and really do love and care for me. I experienced the joy of being surrounded by true friends and being included in outings and activities. The change was tremendous from being dislike and outcast to being someone who is being love and accepted and surprisingly being appreciated. It feels great to be liked and love. I finally had the sense of belonging. Also in this year, I experienced the pain where I am old enough to feel and understand how it feels to lost someone I really love. Grandma depart on the 21st of May during my term break suddenly. The pain was unbearable and the hurt I experienced in my heart is a wound that would never heal. And then there was Haxim. Dearest Haxim who left us due to an accident. All the promise and the joy he brought were gone just suddenly, without any last words. Yes, being 18 had meant a lot of tearing. Tears. They do seem to come a lot this year. Now for the past reasons like how I felt so abandoned and unloved and facing people around me years ago, but crying because of the people I love and care for. For my parents health and their safety back home, for sis and when she was down and felt so lonely, when friendships met road blocks, when I felt so homesick, when I understand how my parents feel, when I miss my parents and how much I love them, when God felt so far away, when my love ones depart, when I felt the exam stress overwhelming. But there were also tears of joy. Like how I got surprises on my 18th birthday, for once I had a real celebration with friends, like when I realise my friends love me and care for me, when they listen to my problems. Being 18 years old had indeed been special. It had been 6 months since my birthday. There are still 6 more months to go before I turn 19, one step nearer to leaving being my teenagehood and one step closer to being 20 and an adult. During these period of time, I took the time to hurt and to heal. To experience and look at what God is doing in my life, trying to lead a life pleasant in His sight and living in a way that would please Him. By this, I know I would be making others happy as well. In this period of time, I am also trying to forgo my past, my hurts and my ugly thoughts, trying to replace them with the present and future, the healing and pleasant things. Maybe not many will understand these feelings, but I know they are true. I am through with silly infatuations, and my selfishness. I am tired of being self-centred and having low self-esteem. I am sick of feeling superior at times and being so nonchalant about important things. But I am still leaarning and trying to change for the better. Life is all about learning. And I thank God for His guidance and love for me, my family and friends... 0 comments |
