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Child of God  ~[Lily Soon] ~Belongs to God. ~I don't bite. ~Music is beautiful. Here & There Talk To Me Definition of Love Love is kind It does not envy It does not boast It is not proud It is not rude It is not self-seeking It is not easily angered It keeps no record of wrongs Love does not delight in evil But rejoices with truth It always protects Always trusts Always hope Always perserveres Love never fails) 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 God's Words Pray with Me -Sister's spiritual growth -Auntie Christina Sim's health & healing -Developing countries -Spiritual growth -Knowing what God has in plan for me -Relatives to know about Christ -Gift of Giving -Studies -Health and well-being of family -Discipline and focus in goals -Perserverence in reading the bible daily Bros & Sis<3 Aimst Fellowship Crystal Bian Bian Lily姐 小云姐 Teddy哥哥 Alex^^ Jasper Max Mic Mic Shi Yi Edith Val Yee Loi Larry Joy Kelvin C Kawaii Kevin Evelyn Felicia Jacinta Rome Serenne Lawson Blogs I Read Yuu~Chan Vain Kenny Xiu Wen Fai Fai Stephy Vincent Joey Shaunnie Christine Baby Bear(Li Ann) Papa Bear(Zhang Huai) Amelia^^ Angeline(Dolphin) Clement Yi Cheng Zhi Hui Rachael Kuan Wen Wei Lian Have a Look Cheesie Xia Xue Vivian Su Ann May Zhee Jessica Peggy Yan Wen Dawn Nira Gwendolyn Cai Weii Esther Pei Yeeng Feisty Charmaine Michelle Justice4BengHock YMI Isabella Chukei-Baby Let bygone be bygone. July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 June 2010 July 2010 October 2010 March 2011 |
Saturday, April 5 ( Jesus I love you... @ 19:58:00 )  These days, I feel God is a million miles away. So far from me. Then again, in reality, He never left my side, it's just me, relying on FEELING again... This evening, it strikes me suddenly that my life is such a mess up that it is a real shame to even talk about it now. But I have to pour this somewhere. I prayed hard and long just now-with bucket of tears coursing down my cheeks. My life is out of control-I realise it this evening. I am slacking in my studies, God seems so far away, I am backsliding spiritually, missing my devotions everyday, waking up late, attending class late, going to work late, lying, gossiping, thinking revealing-clothes are okay, watching too much movies, spending too much time doing nothing or simply doing nonsense, mountains of homeworks laid untouch, exam is next month, I am slacking in taking care of my weight, eating like crazy everyday, being rude to lecturers, did not prepare for public speaking, going out too often, neglecting my studies, getting tired of studies, being too over the clouds, taking lightly of everything, lost the care and love I had for others, becoming cold, everything... I need to step back, take a breath and sleep early. Did I mention my skin is deterioating again? I am slacking in every aspect. Things are going to change now. It's time to wake up and be a decent girl that you are, Lily... It's time... My 18th birthday is just weeks away. I don't want to remember my 18th year on Earth as a failure, a nothing and I don't want to remain nothing. For once, I want to be something, work hard for it and be something good. Something that God would be proud off, something my parents would be proud off, like studying hard and hang out with the right people doing good things. I am tired of being a worldly person, tired of who I used to be. I want to be, someone I know I can be better, like someone God crerated me to be, not this crap of a junk person now. Thanks for your love Father, thanks for the support and advice, Michelle darling and thank you my 2 gor gors, for letting me know I can't depend on worldly people. It's time I depend on God fully and stand on my own feet. I hate how he is being treated like crap but is so blind to see and I am sick of the other one gambling away when exam is next week. i am sick of everything. I am sick of myself-disgusted actually. I am starting anew from this very moment. Tomorrow will be a brand new day. I will changed for good, this time, I mean it... XOXO, ~Lily~ 0 comments |
