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Love is patient
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Love does not delight in evil
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Monday, March 3

( Final Hours Reminiscing The Past Memories... @ 21:39:00 )

The day at the beach was really a turning point in my life. I let go of everything in my mind and that terrible memory that has been haunting me for the past months. I found the courage to dug it out from the depth of my heart and faced with the fact that he was gone, forever, never to be there for me ever again, that belong somewhere else and nothing will ever change the fact. I figure out today, a few hours ago, over a comfortingly warm mug of Milo (Sha's happy drink) that i need to start anew, to change myself instead of hoping things to change around me. I am actually quite proud of myself, the ability to hide the hurt deep inside me, the pain I have to bear and more pain had struck me awake.

I found the desire to grow even closer to God. It struck me and I really want to break down really badly. I need to go back to Him before I get lost even further. I need a sane mind to think before I do anything. I need proper guidances from people that are truthful and care about me, I need encouragements every now and then to go that extra mile, I need hugs every now and then, I need to be loved every single day and most importantly, I need to talk to somebody that I can truly trust and with whom I can relate everything to- but sadly, that someone never did appeared and I am stuck with the horrible idea of making a total fool out of myself when that person I trust don't even care twopence about me.

Tomorrow is another new day. I need to be quiet for now, just to feel myself again, to calm my thoughts and to wash out all the unnecessary things that had accumulatge in my brain and heart over the past few months. Because, right now, I feel so heavy and burden. I am losing weight instead of gaining them even when I indulge myself with sugary treats these days to make myself happy. I need to find something I can do to make myself feel Me again. I need space, I need to stop, take a step back in time and observe what is happening around me and to start all over again. It's like when you accidentally press the Shut Down button to your computer. Everything shuts down, you start it over and everything will never be the same again.

That's what I am trying to do, shut my life down and restart it, hoping for a new life... Wish me all the best and pray for me.. That I will be able to start over with a clean slack of paper and the weights off my shoulder because I am tired, exhausted and plain ignorant of my life. I need to get a grip before I lose my head.

It is like I say, reminiscing the final hours of my past memories, the most bitter and the most hurtful, and the deepest darkest memories there are, chuck out the old dilemmas and just look to the front and start all over again. Give me time and a chance to start over...

Loves,
-The new-but-not-so new-Me,
Cos, in the end, I am still me,
-Xiao Ni-



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