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Child of God  ~[Lily Soon] ~Belongs to God. ~I don't bite. ~Music is beautiful. Here & There Talk To Me Definition of Love Love is kind It does not envy It does not boast It is not proud It is not rude It is not self-seeking It is not easily angered It keeps no record of wrongs Love does not delight in evil But rejoices with truth It always protects Always trusts Always hope Always perserveres Love never fails) 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 God's Words Pray with Me -Sister's spiritual growth -Auntie Christina Sim's health & healing -Developing countries -Spiritual growth -Knowing what God has in plan for me -Relatives to know about Christ -Gift of Giving -Studies -Health and well-being of family -Discipline and focus in goals -Perserverence in reading the bible daily Bros & Sis<3 Aimst Fellowship Crystal Bian Bian Lily姐 小云姐 Teddy哥哥 Alex^^ Jasper Max Mic Mic Shi Yi Edith Val Yee Loi Larry Joy Kelvin C Kawaii Kevin Evelyn Felicia Jacinta Rome Serenne Lawson Blogs I Read Yuu~Chan Vain Kenny Xiu Wen Fai Fai Stephy Vincent Joey Shaunnie Christine Baby Bear(Li Ann) Papa Bear(Zhang Huai) Amelia^^ Angeline(Dolphin) Clement Yi Cheng Zhi Hui Rachael Kuan Wen Wei Lian Have a Look Cheesie Xia Xue Vivian Su Ann May Zhee Jessica Peggy Yan Wen Dawn Nira Gwendolyn Cai Weii Esther Pei Yeeng Feisty Charmaine Michelle Justice4BengHock YMI Isabella Chukei-Baby Let bygone be bygone. July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 June 2010 July 2010 October 2010 March 2011 |
Sunday, October 28 ( Awful Truth + Updates @ 22:52:00 ) I am uber heart broken I wan to cry. So sad that i resort to counting grape seeds sitting on the bottom of the empty-of-grape mug that was just full minutes ago. I don't want to let go. No, I rephrase this, I can't let go. I am going bananas! Sorry for the spoiler. I want that cheerful me again! It's time to run away from reality again and pretend to forget about things. At least it makes me feel better. But the memories never seem to fade, and the feelings, that nausea feeling, fluttery feeling just kept growing inside till I am ready to burst! Every touch, every wift of that cologne, every sight, every thought, every song, everything makes me think of that-that. I am going mad. Someone give me amnesia or a brain. i need a brain transplant. Urgent! End of update** Original Post : It's one of those subconscious thing that I rant and describe for many times in my previous posts, much more thought put into it in real life, than in blog. But I never really seem to have the message sink right in, as if, trying to avoid the reality unintentionally. but all along, it was somewhere tuck in the folds in my brain. Whilst in the cold shower this evening, suddenly it hit me hard at the back of my head. The thoughts and it just put things into places. So many puzzling problems and questions I had wonder about but never really bother to rack up the answer. The awful truth hit me hard. I am no more a little girl. I am almost an adult now. No more special treatment for kiddy, no more nice smile from aunties that are strangers that you see in the market. In it's place lies responsibility, wisdom, burden and challenges. My childish attitude make me doubt if I could survive my last few years on the teen hood, before I move into the world of Adults. I wish I can outgrow my childishness. deep inside, my mind is mature, but my behaviour and the way I express myself, does not protray the things going on in my mind. SPM coming up in exactly two weeks from now. I dread the time I would have to walk into the exam hall and sit on my place with the paper in front of me. How would I feel? Nervous? Scared? Relief? I am graduating from secndary school in a few weeks time. Then it is off to find my own path for my own future. No more exact directions set by school or anything like before. It scares me. You see, sometime i fear venturing out of my comfort zone, that is one that have instructions-clear ones. And in 2-3 more years, I am hitting the number 2-0...I am getting old. And i dread it.. Now I don't want to grow up at all.. Gor gor is almost nuts from studying for his finals. Zhu zhu is kind of depressed? Unmotivated perhaps? I don't know. The people around me seems kind of down right now. I wish i can do something but it seems I can't do much to help. I can just pray silently and wait for God's intervension. it's the beginning of an unending campaign at EMC. It's prayer month, An Adventure With God. I had committed myself to daily devotion in these upcoming 4 weeks, parying daily, and read the prayer bulletin weekly. I borrowed a book too. I hope I can finish reading it before I have to return the book. So, that's all I guess. Got to return to Physics. I am so blur about Physics.... Labels: Emotions and Memories 0 comments |
