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Child of God  ~[Lily Soon] ~Belongs to God. ~I don't bite. ~Music is beautiful. Here & There Talk To Me Definition of Love Love is kind It does not envy It does not boast It is not proud It is not rude It is not self-seeking It is not easily angered It keeps no record of wrongs Love does not delight in evil But rejoices with truth It always protects Always trusts Always hope Always perserveres Love never fails) 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 God's Words Pray with Me -Sister's spiritual growth -Auntie Christina Sim's health & healing -Developing countries -Spiritual growth -Knowing what God has in plan for me -Relatives to know about Christ -Gift of Giving -Studies -Health and well-being of family -Discipline and focus in goals -Perserverence in reading the bible daily Bros & Sis<3 Aimst Fellowship Crystal Bian Bian Lily姐 小云姐 Teddy哥哥 Alex^^ Jasper Max Mic Mic Shi Yi Edith Val Yee Loi Larry Joy Kelvin C Kawaii Kevin Evelyn Felicia Jacinta Rome Serenne Lawson Blogs I Read Yuu~Chan Vain Kenny Xiu Wen Fai Fai Stephy Vincent Joey Shaunnie Christine Baby Bear(Li Ann) Papa Bear(Zhang Huai) Amelia^^ Angeline(Dolphin) Clement Yi Cheng Zhi Hui Rachael Kuan Wen Wei Lian Have a Look Cheesie Xia Xue Vivian Su Ann May Zhee Jessica Peggy Yan Wen Dawn Nira Gwendolyn Cai Weii Esther Pei Yeeng Feisty Charmaine Michelle Justice4BengHock YMI Isabella Chukei-Baby Let bygone be bygone. July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 June 2010 July 2010 October 2010 March 2011 |
Wednesday, October 10 ( 80 Cents Worth of Joy Ride @ 18:27:00 ) Despite the noisy humming that seems so distant in my jumbled-mind, I wonder how could I had hurt someone that I care about and had treated me good. I felt so guilty, I swear I could open up the window next to me and jump off the bus. Yeah, my first experience on the bus alone. The sunshine shone and glimmer through the large windows. The "beep" sound of those red buttons in the bus that you press to stop the bus at times startled me from my dilemma. How I wish there is that little red and square button where I can pressed and I can stop the time there while I alight from reality. How I wished. I need to unwind myself before hurting more of the people around me and hurting myself. It was that same but totally different anticipation for the bus to quickly reached that junction to my house so I can get off and the worries of losing my way become overwhelming. It was panicky just like when I almost got chased by a huge dog while jogging the other day. It was that same feeling waiting for messages from that someone after the squibble and pissing that someone off. What had I done? Does he still think the same way of me? Or had things totally changed? Maybe it is coincidence or maybe it was on purpose that he now ignored me-at least I felt that way. Sighz. What had I done? Will you really forgive me? I hate that feeling, Ihateitihateitihateitihateit! It is as depressing as that break up with him so far apart, where I cant give that last hug or see his face for the last time. It is that feeling that haunt me now, for not being able to say sorry face to face and see his reaction. Maybe it will be better if I never see that side of the face. Just maybe just maybe. Maybe I should follow his advice. Not to be so pushy, but be open minded and befriend before waiting to see the intervention. Just maybe. There is so many maybes. I really should crawl out of that hole of maybes and moved on. I believe, I really do. Now, sitting here all sweaty from the workout, I am blogging. I had not been online so much lately. I lost the interest in chatting and friendster. Except that chatting with those few familiar and close friends. so, maybe my blog will be left here to rot for a month time. I will be back more often after my SPM exam, if I am not too busy working or sleeping in someone's garden n Kuching. *cough cough cough* HAHA.. Owh well. For those anticipating on the update in my blog, say thank you to Kenny la. Because I broke the promise to myself to not online because Kenny seduce me to online with his new blog post! Arghhhh!!KENNY!!!!YEs Kenny! It's you to be blame! You owe me another ban ban tang!!!Grrrr and and don't put on weight on your trip back la. I know the food very nice. I am kind of worry when I see your plan list when you are back home. * cough* six packs *cough* doomed. Remember you want to look good on your prom RIGHT? And and and the six packs right?HAHAHAHAHA.. I am ready to give that "mou ngan tai" look when I see you post after you back to KL. Hahahahaha.. Fine..like this la, I challenge you (ehem, for your own good). I challeng you to lose 2-3 kgs more when you are back in Kuching and work on that abs! Hehe... Kenny, drop down and give me a hundred now!!! Push up + sit ups! 1...2...3...4...5... You continue while I study. When you are done, just tell me ya! *cough* how long *cough* I can *cough* finish *cough* whole chapter *cough* Cell division * cough* by then? *cough cough cough* *I gave up on you-know-what! It brings so much no goods and just make me more depressed instead of the other way round! Bye bye team! Work hard! I am not you-know-what capable! I suckss big time in that! Sorry. Ballet and freestyle can lar. That? Very sorry! I don't want things or relationships to get any worse or to see any more of the bad habits and true self rearing out. Just let me stay blur and blind. Maybe then the world will be more beautiful!* Labels: Emotions and Memories 0 comments |
