Love is patient
Love is kind
It does not envy
It does not boast
It is not proud
It is not rude
It is not self-seeking
It is not easily angered
It keeps no record of wrongs
Love does not delight in evil
But rejoices with truth
It always protects
Always trusts
Always hope
Always perserveres
Love never fails)
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
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Yes, we have walked and reach yet another crossroad. Baby,Your crisp voice over the phone, trying to make yourself be heard over the noise in the background, of laughter and loud music. I was only too sure of your whereabouts. Hands trembling and cold feet, I manage to say something and hung up. But, I decided that it had to be done. Everything seems to be okay and getting back to normal. The uncertainity that hung in the air, i could not endure any longer. I tried to get an respond, an answer-hopefully a positive ones. I forgot how you had hurt me because I really, truly love you. I thought it could be a turning point for us, with that U-turn so near in front of us. I knew that what I was about to do would make the whole thing collapse. The building of faith and love that had been build with so much torment and work but pulled down in seconds. Yes, there was tearing, just a few tears coursing down my cheeks and that was all. i kneel down and said a prayer aloud, alone in the room, wishing and asking that God would give me a chance-but maybe, just maybe, he thought what was best for me and make that decision. If given the chance, I would have rather not meet you so that my heart would not be slashed. The wound will heal one day, with the passing of time. I am learning to let go and growing stronger each day. After that call, I heard you over the line. i already predicted what you were going to say and calmly accepted it. You told me to erase all of our memories together and of you, and let go and pretend to be strangers. That we were from 2 totally different worlds. All your promises crushed completely like those buildings you had put up at work. Without strong foundation, it collapse. Maybe we lacked of foundation, foundation of friendship. Given the choice, i would not had accepted you as my beloved, I rather that I had never received those hugs and kisses and tender care of yours. Now, it would hung in my mind and my heart, haunting me and making me feeling dejected. I hate to have come to that crossroad, where we have to part and we let go of each others' hands and say goodbye. Thecrossroad we had walked before and you somehow manage to find a U-turn and now, we are faced with yet another crossroad. My legs feel heavy to trudge on my way while you skipped joyfully down the lane that you choose. I walked to the left and you, to the right. I did turned back and took a glimpse but you had already vanished out of my sight. All I saw was the evening sun setting, sygnifying an ending of a difficult and heart-wrenching relationship that was full of fire and romance at the start. It was beautiful like our love-as it was before. I now tried to wiped out all the negative and positive memories and thoughts of us. I feel free all of a sudden. The feeling had almost gone. There seems to be no more love. Now, i am certain as we part at this crossroad, we wil never cross paths ever again. i am letting go. This time, I am certain, there would not be another U-turn, needless to say, another crossroad with You. As the sun peep out from the horizon, the purplish yellowish and pink colour bite at the rising sun, a sense of serenity overwhelmed me, enveloping myself in peace. And i know, I will never ever called him baby. Maybe i will miss him at times but that is all. I realise that I have a long road to travel and I hope that one of these days, I would cross a path and there would be someone there who truly loves me and appreciates me and mean it, when he says "I love you".
